Because you will die soon.
I don’t know but that is how I picture this kind of cancer. Mesothelioma will not give you a choice. How could one with malignant mesothelioma be able to do something when one’s balance is devastated by the pain caused by the cancer?
How can one do something and choose to be of use when he is exhausted, could not eat, lacks motivation and has pain in the chest area?
This cancer, and maybe all types of painful cancer will render anyone useless. It will not give you a choice of doing something valuable because you are afflicted with something that would be very unbearable physically and emotionally.
I hope to God that He will spare me this kind of affliction.