Very Tired

Well, this is just one of those I hate. To feel too much makes me too tired.

‘You know how it feels to be like a balloon full of water ready to burst anytime? It feels like it is welling and these emotional susceptibilities are ready to break loose.

I am no superwoman and yet I desire to be one. Whew! Boy, I sound like an emotionalist.

Then Rejuvenated

(written the morning after)

I woke up late this morning. I did not have much sleep. What with the grunts coming from a drunk partner. I tried to close my eyes but I cannot have my ears closed. I wanted to let the situation be – him grunting and me ignoring. I ended up dabbing his face with a towel dipped in hot (err… warm) water. He pulled a face while I was doing it, probably there was some sense left. He could still grimace.

All throughout the night, he was grunting. I did not know what time, but probably it was way past midnight when I blanked over.

I woke up late from a soft kiss planted on my thigh (yes, on my thigh) and soft pats and a soft voice coming from someone trying to make amends. I listened. Then suddenly, as if recalling everything, I burst out (but not with the level of anger the night before) pretending to be angry still. He was laughing. Yes, he was laughing at me (and at everything I was telling him he did). Then he told me he’s sorry and that he didn’t know what he was doing (which is still a very big question to me – do drunk people really forget what had happened?). And as I have told, he was trying to make amends, to compensate from everything he (unknowingly?) did. Breakfast was ready with my favorite combination of tuyo, fried egg (with no salt) and fried rice. Really good coffee was also prepared.

After breakfast, Kay played her favorite Growing Old With You, by Adam Sandler. I told him to listen especially to the last stanza.

I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

Ill miss you
Ill kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Ill need you
Ill feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the (wo)man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

For better or for worse…

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22 thoughts on “Very Tired

  1. Ha ha ha! Hay naku Bing. So sweeeet. Kaya masarap ang breakfast. I’ve not heard that Adam Sandler song but the lyrics are cute. Do you remember The Beatles’ When I’m 64? (When I get older, losing my hair, many years from now … will you still be sending me a valentine, birthday greetings or bottle of wine … if I’ve been out till quarter to 3, would you lock the door? Will you still need me, will you still feed me … when I’m 64. … Dedicated to you and hubby.)

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  2. hi, din-din, i think there will always be times when you feel you cant take things anymore.. 🙂

    single, mas lalo nagiging sweet pag me kasalanan he he but i tell you, unforgettable din ang mga gabing mag-aalala ka at di makatulog because of his grunts (which sound like groans at times).

    Kay said it is from that movie, irene.

    i’ve forgiven him already, mmy-lei. who wouldnt with such gestures, kahit na it’s becuz he was making amends?

    thanks, bugsy! almost the same nga ang song ano?

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  3. R.J Puno’s Kahit Maputi Na Ang Buhok Ko is another song about growing old together through thick and thin.

    But this doesn’t ring true to the majority anymore esp. the new generation. Almost always they use ‘irreconcilable differences’ as ground for separation or divorce.

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  4. Hahaha… What the… I sang this song to Jean on her birthday 4 years ago– infront of everybody. It’s just a very honest song and a very easy one to sing–and play the guitar with.

    I’m still keeping my promise to let her hold the remote control.

    Anyway, great to know you’ve been reinvigorated since, bing.

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  5. dun lang, ipanema… ginigising lang ako, e, he he 😉

    i fell head over heels the first time i heard this songrey. it has a very simple melody, yes, but it is so sincere.

    thanks for sharing your thoughts. 🙂

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  6. it’s possible to forget things with drunkeness.

    although making amends for something forgotten indicates that something was remembered. :p

    don’t lose that sweetness.
    It is necessary for a successful marriage.

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  7. Sometimes, the thing between a man and a woman is such a surreal realm, we feel anger and joy, one after the other, at times both at the same time, yet in the end, everything is calm like water…

    I think such is the secret of the so-called lasting relationships…

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  8. hi, stranger. they spice our lives 🙂 ‘nga e, kiss and makeup, tapos uulitin uli, it’s becoming a cycle na nga, e…

    actually, lazarus, that’s the only line i remembered sa vow, ha ha ha

    maybe yes, maybe no, major tom. 🙂

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  9. ano ba yan? Is it the season to feel tired? Ako din tired and looking forward to having a break from work and other activities.
    Anyway, Adam Sandler’s song is tops with me, minsan panoorin ko yung ending lang ng wedding singer, just to see him singing the song…

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  10. Ang sabi ni Margie Holmes “Mahirap ang buhay ngayon, wala kang maasahan sa gobyerno o sa ibang tao kundi ang iyong relationship sa partner mo pero kailangan pagtrabahuhan ito.”

    I could tell why you were rejuvenated the morning after. ha ha ha.

    happy weekend.

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  11. oo nga, e, ann. at least, malambing he he

    maganda talaga ang song na yun, lws.

    we owe ourselves a break, beth.:-)

    maganda ang sinabing yun ni Margie Holmes, a, rolly. you could tell why? he he

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